Posts Tagged ‘relationships’

“strings and freedom”
completed on 8.10.19

this can’t end as another sad song
from the fading light of what i knew
childhood memories i still pursue
an anchor that pulls so strong
a heavy weight holding on to me

for years i was broken
from shattered memories that i still hold
pain that seared through my soul
i’m starting to make myself whole
to escape the darkness of pain’s blindfold

instead of looking over my shoulder
where every line i write
tears a larger hole
i’m picking up my soul
i’ll write ’til i find the light inside me

i’m not forgetting
but i’m cutting the strings
to these hooks haunting me
to finally feel like i am free
so i can spread my wings

(chorus)
these holes may never fully heal
but i can sew these scars
cut these strings holding me
and release this weight off me
to head for the stars

“Toppling Down”
completed on 5.25.19

i brushed the dust off
a box lost long ago
sealed with layers of caution tape
sliced open with a knife
but the worst was yet to come

wrapped in layers
meant to protect
thought it was safe
but in the dim light i saw
chips and cracks I never knew were there

something bestowed decades ago
crafted from morals and memories
but heartache and stress
made it far too fragile
so i packed it away to keep it safe

too blind and stubborn
despite the cracks
in my ceramic skin
i poured and then poured some more
overflowed and now I’m toppling down

spilling over from the weight of it all
volatile emotions that spill and ignite
vapors of my demons incinerating
tumbling on a one way ticket
as i strike the ground

i bounced off that floor
fractured and shattered
caught on fire and couldn’t breathe
through that black smoke
couldn’t do anything but stumble and choke

but you picked up all my fragile pieces
glued me back together and made me whole
and i still have cracks
but you fill those holes
so there’s more than emptiness inside

you’re the only one
who can look past my imperfections
you’re the only one
who brings out the best in me

“Cellophane”

Posted: April 27, 2019 in Lyrics, Poem
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“Cellophane”
completed on 4.27.19

i’ve always been scared of the unknown
so i wrapped my heart in cellophane
thin and transparent
but it was enough to keep me strong

but all the cracks in my soul
stretch and tear that cellophane
attacks that can seep inside
no barrier to shield me anymore

sometimes i wish I had been stronger
then a barrier paper thin
but I’m trying to grow stronger
grow a thicker skin

my progress and my regress
aren’t grounds for you to judge
i don’t need your critique or honesty
just let me unfold on my own

sometimes i just need my space
to figure out what makes my heart race
if i could just make this world slow down
then maybe my head wouldn’t pound

and then i could start feeling
far less lost and far more found
so maybe i’m ready to let you look in
bring out the best of me within

“Nostalgia”
written on 3.13.19

maybe it’s nostalgia
maybe just fading memories
but no one taught me that
growing up life’s beauty
can also make you bleed

i’m tired of mailing you letters
heartfelt notes that i penned
that mostly collect dust
from a presence gone long ago

maybe it’s time to light a match
to postcards from the past
’cause i’ve daydreamed far too long
to an effort that can’t last
forging a empty, haunting song

<chorus>
so i can’t keep reaching out
leaving my soul hanging from a ledge
’cause there’s someone beside me now
who loves me with a vow

so young and naive
hearts that flash then leave
memories smoldering in a flame
no one to blame
but i’m still healing just the same

<bridge>
she keeps me from falling
never stops calling
keeps my head above water
saves me from life’s slaughter

“Tears Like Sleet”
completed on 12.21.18

i caught up with you
in the middle of your journey
feels like a billion years
as you replay everything in your mind

i can tell by the creases on your brow
there’s some things you need help with right now
everything in life out of tune
your mind spinning like a typhoon

<chorus>
i’ll help you, my friend
lost under the dim light of a pale moon
find the blaze of our bright sun
that lights a new path for you

tears like sleet
while you’re speeding down a dead end
slipping and sliding
about to lose control

you don’t want to reach out
for help, but i’ll grab your hand
and pull you up
be an anchor to help you stand

i’ll throw you a rope
a lifeline to escape
your pain, the weight
of feeling incomplete

<bridge>
to a brand new view
’til you learn to cope
to a brand new hope
away from that tightrope

“You’ll Never Be Alone”
completed on 9.17.18

i watched the dust trail settle
a flower losing its last petal
‘cause I never know where
you are, evidence you just don’t care

i sent you a thousand warnings
flares shot to give you a choice
but you weren’t even looking
now i’m letting this silence be my voice

i lit a match to your excuses
forgave myself for any dues
‘cause you could never find the time
absent during all your prime

i started this letter with hate
but my heart made me restate
this poem is not for you
it’s a promise to another I’ll follow through

family’s not simply chromosomes
but the ones that you can call home
I’ll always be your glue
and always believe in you

I’ll give you all life’s love
from the moment you are born
and as you grow I’m sworn
someone i’ll always be proud of

I’ll be there when you get sick
I’ll be there through thin and thick
you’ll always have a hand to hold
even as you grow old

chorus:
you’ll never be alone
you’ll never feel disowned
I’ll never withhold any love
I’ll always be your stronghold

“Shackles and Chains”
completed on 5.22.18

this may be the time to slip out
i’ve beared the shackles and chains
’cause i could never doubt
the blood that runs through my veins

i’ve asked you to fight
hoped you’d always breakout
’cause there’s a story to write
a joy you’ve been without

i’ve tried to show you the light
prayed you’ll always be alright
longed to see your new ways
to spend the rest of our days

and i’ve fought and stretched the links
our instinct to try to escape
it’s a pain that hurts more than you think
emptiness you’ve bandaged with merely tape

they say blood is thicker than water
something thicker than steel
but i’m drowning underwater
and i need the strength to heal

(chorus)
shackles and chains
i’ll lead you to the light
i will escape the pain
a future that will be so bright

 

 

“Take Me Back”
completed on 8.26.17

[chorus]
pictures and memories
sunshine and treachery
flashbacks to the years
when i could hold you

the flicker of the sun’s rays
soft crash of ocean waves
fearless and careless
all ’cause you were near

the flicker of a heartbeat
the fear of the obscure
the rush of my first kiss
sheer bliss and the abyss

the flicker of life’s blindfold
the wear and tear of growing old
the strain of every day
suppressed ’cause you stay

the flicker of my life
the need to protect my wife
when i hold you close
the only time my heart’s exposed

everything i do
everything i aspire to be
is only ’cause i had you

“Inhale/Exhale”
completed on 2.26.17

sometimes this life can be so rough
like sandpaper tearing
the skin right off of me
open wounds and an open heart

the sadness falling
saline rolling down my cheek
the weight of life’s responsibilities
crushing all my dreams
give me relief, throw me anything

sometimes life’s expectations
a rope slipping, a rope tightening
the lifeline in your embrace
your breath, the air my lungs need
the sunshine your love feeds me

this life can be so rough
pins and needles and heartache
but i’ll keep on fighting
’cause your love gave me a heartbeat
your love a reason to breathe
your love pushed life into me

“kell”

Posted: January 5, 2017 in Lyrics, Poem
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“kell”
completed on 1.4.17

i know that i’m not crazy
but the hands on every clock
know when you’re not in my arms
maybe they’re dragging, as sad as i am
’cause they turn so much slower when you’re away
a game and speed up like my heart when they see you

i know what i was before you
emptiness and a soul in pain
but the first time i held your hand
a fire ignited, nothing will ever be the same

and i’m not sure how to thank you
every day with words that you’re beautiful
but that’s not even half of it
’cause you’re my angel that brought me back to life

so this is just a short note
words of admiration
just for being you
’cause my life is so infinitely brighter
all because of you

the sun’s rays just feel so much warmer
your kiss just tastes so much sweeter
the stars shine so much brighter
with my arms wrapped around you

this life is just a fairytale
all because of you
i have everything in life
every single thing when i’m with you