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“Cellophane”

Posted: April 27, 2019 in Lyrics, Poem
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“Cellophane”
completed on 4.27.19

i’ve always been scared of the unknown
so i wrapped my heart in cellophane
thin and transparent
but it was enough to keep me strong

but all the cracks in my soul
stretch and tear that cellophane
attacks that can seep inside
no barrier to shield me anymore

sometimes i wish I had been stronger
then a barrier paper thin
but I’m trying to grow stronger
grow a thicker skin

my progress and my regress
aren’t grounds for you to judge
i don’t need your critique or honesty
just let me unfold on my own

sometimes i just need my space
to figure out what makes my heart race
if i could just make this world slow down
then maybe my head wouldn’t pound

and then i could start feeling
far less lost and far more found
so maybe i’m ready to let you look in
bring out the best of me within

“Nostalgia”
written on 3.13.19

maybe it’s nostalgia
maybe just fading memories
but no one taught me that
growing up life’s beauty
can also make you bleed

i’m tired of mailing you letters
heartfelt notes that i penned
that mostly collect dust
from a presence gone long ago

maybe it’s time to light a match
to postcards from the past
’cause i’ve daydreamed far too long
to an effort that can’t last
forging a empty, haunting song

<chorus>
so i can’t keep reaching out
leaving my soul hanging from a ledge
’cause there’s someone beside me now
who loves me with a vow

so young and naive
hearts that flash then leave
memories smoldering in a flame
no one to blame
but i’m still healing just the same

<bridge>
she keeps me from falling
never stops calling
keeps my head above water
saves me from life’s slaughter

“Hurricane”
completed on 1.24.19

the destruction in my wake
the damage that i make
but you grab me at my core
and leave me never needing more

sometimes i’m lost inside a hurricane
the wind swirling around me
leaving me where I can’t see
the slightest thing in front of me

i trend towards chaos
destroy everything in front of me
i’m fighting for answers
and don’t have time to ask for help

chorus:
but your voice is louder than the thunder
and you shield me from the hail
somehow you always calm a storm
a sun shower leaving me feel warm

you calm the ground when it quakes
stop the wind in its place
stop the fire from spreading
to ease my troubled mind

at times i only see a glass that’s empty
but you always fill my cup
when my mind digs a shelter
you always pull me out

chant/round:
louder than my thunder
armor from my hail
soothing my storm
leaving me feel warm

“White Dress”
written on 12/3/17

i know what i was before you
emptiness and feeling blue
but once i grasped your hand
you pulled me through the quicksand

i used to think the sun was blinding bright
but you radiate so much more light
no one but you could wear it right
to have you in all white

innocent and strong
you steal away life’s wrongs
to have you as my bride
to forever have you by my side

so this is just a short song
to say i’ve loved you all along
my life would finally be worthwhile
with you walking down this aisle

i’m not sure how to thank you
for everything you helped me through
you’re the angel that brought me back to life
the one i need to be my wife

so pretty in that white dress
an eternity of love and faithfulness
i’d have everything in life
every single thing if you’d be my wife

“Quite the Journey” performed by the amazing Alissa Beyer.
Lyrics from “I Will Get Back to You”.

“I Will Get Back To You”
written on 3.30.17

and you got swept away
didn’t know what to do or say
but now i’ve found my oars
to finally set sail back to the shores

this will be quite the journey
not something i can do alone
but this time i’ve found the one
who can help me get it done
she’s the wind feeding my sails

i still have cracks throughout my hull
the result of all my grieving
but this time i’m not sinking
i’ve found the hope in my thinking

you built the compass inside me
taught me how to navigate the sea
you gave me the strength to chart the course
through all life’s storms and force
no waves to keep me from feeling free

and i know where you are headed
’cause you believed fearlessly
i’ll ride the waves through all life’s struggles
leaving behind all my troubles

“prism in tumult”
written on 9.28.16

i live somewhere in between
between lips exhaling hope
and eyes that may or may not
be able to distinguish dreams from reality
a beautiful obscurity both graceful and confusing

chorus:
i see the salvation of a smile
with the heartache of falling short
the promise of the future
with the pain of not adding up

the glow from the castle
promise, hope within
but walls that keep me out
the view of a lifetime
the doubts of getting in

the stillness of my head on her chest
the pressure of life weighing down
the joy of my arms around her
while the bills are piling up
she’s a prism in a tumultuous sky

and i can’t say that i’m unhappy
i just want to give her better
i just want to make the world better
the beauty of a rose
without the pain of the thorns

i’m smart enough to know
life is about the give and take
i’d be happy to trade in the beauty and the fortune
for an eternity with you

“Bleeding to Blue Sky”
written on 8.13.16

my heart bleeding nothing but gasoline
running on fumes, cylinders skipping
falling behind on all my hopes and dreams
frustration and doubt darkening a promising sky

you burn brighter than a match
your smile, your charm
set ablaze the vapors in my veins
igniting my heart strings
shooting fire through me

chorus:
we never even smoldered
our love just engulfed all the pain
and with my arms wrapped tight around you
our hopes dance along the flames

you burn brighter than the night sky
i breathe in the faith you give me
exhale our dreams and aspirations
the whitest clouds fill up the blue sky

“reflection”
completed on 6.2.16

this is the ultimate descent
my tumble downward
skin tear to split open my core
broken bones reveal my soul

and now i know my heart will bleed out
as my questions are a scalpel
slicing the sutures of my doubts
that prevented me from coming unglued

we both tumbled off that cliff
skin abrasions and bruised hearts
grasping for withering rope
a relationship in distress

and now i’m in the fallout
with your hand reaching out to me
but i fear the repetition
maybe i should pull myself out alone?

in the traumatic daze i feel confused
to rewind the film or start brand new
a broken past i know is true
or a future to fight through

in my dreams i see your smile
in my nightmares i see our plight
a guilt for letting go
a need for my optimism and dreams return