Posts Tagged ‘lost love’

“reflection”
completed on 6.2.16

this is the ultimate descent
my tumble downward
skin tear to split open my core
broken bones reveal my soul

and now i know my heart will bleed out
as my questions are a scalpel
slicing the sutures of my doubts
that prevented me from coming unglued

we both tumbled off the cliff
skin abrasions and bruised hearts
grasping for withering rope
a relationship in distress

and now i’m in the fallout
with your hand reaching out to me
but I fear the repetition
maybe i should pull myself out alone?

in the traumatic daze i feel confused
to rewind the film or start brand new
a broken past i know is true
or a future to fight through

in my dreams i see your smile
in my nightmares i see our plight
a guilt for letting go
a need for my optimism and dreams return

“sand castle”
written on 4.21.16

like a child in a sandbox
shifting sand to create my dreams
but love isn’t quite as simple to build
as we age the castle grows taller
life’s complexity causing the waves to grow larger
threatening to topple my sand castle

i wish love was as easy as saying i need you
but the older we get
the more of our puzzle pieces we find
the harder others become to fit the missing holes
so i stare at a picture that may never be complete

so in my sandbox i built a mansion
every floor built closer to my dreams
but without you i have no foundation
and the emptiness’s waves always threatening
to wash away all my hopes and dreams

so maybe before the sun sets
before the stars appear out of reach
i’ll find you in this place
and we’ll sit here on the beach
and let the sand wrap around our feet

“the end”
written on 3.2.16

a line drawn in the sand
blurred by winds of frustration and the unknown
i witnessed our bright future dim to night
and lost grasp of your loving hand

a downward spiral consuming us
we both turned to medication
our life raft really a sinking ship
a fairytale crumbling in front of us

we moved our lips and made small talk
went through the motions and played the part
ignoring the depth led to a bleeding heart
and now my love has all bled out

and we both could point a finger
raise our voice and make verbal jabs
but that won’t bring us back
’cause we self-destructed
and now there’s nothing but aftermath

tied together by a promise
hope of a better life
but I no longer see you as my wife
too many years of heartache and strife
the end of everything wrong or right

“in vain”

Posted: November 17, 2015 in Lyrics, Poem
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“in vain”
written on 11.18.15

sunlight’s rays far too brief
the chill of winter smothering summer’s warmth
i’ve reached through the depths of your eyes
midnight melancholy masking the starlight

tears falling in vain
to wash away the pain
the sting of my call for help
falling on deaf ears
alone drenched in all my fears

the thrill of her skin’s touch
crushed by dark waves of discontent
embers dancing in the darkness thought to thrive
not expected to survive

love now viewed from a telescope
as foreign as video on the silver screen
it doesn’t help to dream
when things are exactly as they seem

desperate for sunshine
dreaming out windows overcast
the darkness of my situation
the lightning and the rain
pierced only by my ink pen

“Reach You”

Posted: April 10, 2013 in Lyrics, Poem
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“Reach You”
completed on 4.9.13

midnight blue
bleeding down the walls to my room
it’s an empty life
in a booth that’s meant for two

i trip and stumble
and question why i am here
being a romantic and not having you
exhausting search to hold what’s true

running on empty
nothing but fumes when i breathe out
fill me with hope and inspiration
so i don’t tire ’til i reach you

if i could turn back time
and correct our paths
’cause your heart beats just like mine
i’m just waiting for your sign

my heart is a trainwreck
derailed without you by my side
sadly knowing you are out there
keeps me feeling so alone

i put on a smile
dreams of us walking down the aisle
but being alone stings
like a heart slowly dying

“Invisible Heart”
written on 3/13/13

i open the valves to my heart
to let my love openly flow out
to shower you with a love
more intense than you’ve ever felt of

my heart drawn to you
unrequieted; a vein cut through
all my dreams of us in doubt
pain and frustration seeping out

my hope fading in despair
oblivious to how much i care
washed out by the drums of you
marching to your own heartbeat

i try so hard
to get you to lower your guard
all i want is to show you love
not be something you dispose of

you don’t see how much i care
on my knees without a prayer
you’re unphased when our eyes meet
it’s why i can’t get back on my feet

i’d do anything for you
for you to realize this love is true
but this is all going to fall through
’cause i’m not the one you care to pursue

“Shadows from Charlotte”

Posted: February 2, 2013 in Lyrics, Poem
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“Shadows from Charlotte”
completed on 2.1.13

i sit here at this empty table for two
wishing i would have been here next to you
i wish the timing would improve
but we’re always on the move

you’re sitting in the same seat
i sat in two months ago
if fate would change the clock our way
i could be enjoying life with you today

i see your footprints in the sand
hear your laughter in the air
read the messages you’ve written
but it’s only your shadow i meet

maybe my dreams are puzzle pieces
tiny clues leading me to you
’cause when i wake up in the morning
i always feel so much closer to you

knowing that you’re out there
stings that i haven’t met you yet
in my dreams i see your silhouette
i hope it’s not the closest i will get

the soft breeze on your skin
the urge you have to grin
it’s my soul reaching out to you
that i’m always searching, it’s true
i’ll never be complete without you

“You vs. Me”

Posted: September 19, 2012 in Lyrics, Poem
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“You vs. Me”
completed on 9.18.12

you say that you’re a hopeless romantic
that you and i are one in the same
but you don’t see love the way i see it
’cause you refuse to acknowledge the fallout

love is not for sport
love is not a game
pain is not something easily washed away
where a heart can forever fade away

there are a million stars at night
just like the odds of finding
the perfect person for your life
but you don’t care about searching for a wife

i used to be just like you
until i realized she’s the one who got away
now i spend every day hoping
love will come back my way

if i have learned anything from you
it’s that life doesn’t give you anything
you pray and then have to go get it
hoping you find a love that’s true

if i could go back
though you can never go back
you have to live with missed chances
and fight to find future romances

you don’t see the bigger picture
realize how empty life is without love
if there is one thing you can learn from me
it’s that love is this life’s master key

“Little Things”

Posted: August 26, 2012 in Lyrics, Poem
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“Little Things”
written on 8.26.12

not sure why my happiness is a destination
always around another bend
guess it’s ’cause i want the happy ending
and can’t enjoy the little things

but when you long for happy endings
you notice the extremes
but the lows are so much tougher
than the highs mixed in between

i’ll play second fiddle
i’ll play rhythm while you solo over me
i’ll buy my time ’cause one day
she’ll hear my song and listen to me

i’ve filled my skin with ink
to remind me of who i need to be
if only etching you in my mind
was as easy as bringing you to me

i won’t be the first star in the sky you see
but i’ll be the brightest when you find me
’cause all i’ve ever wanted
was to light the night for you

i’ll play second fiddle
i’ll play rhythm while you solo over me
’cause i’ll be there for more than a chorus
i’ll do anything to show you your worth

“Incomplete #2”

Posted: August 25, 2012 in Lyrics, Poem
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“Incomplete #2”
completed on 8.24.12

i don’t know why tears form every time
romantic movies play before my eyes
maybe it’s because i dream of the day
when true love will finally come my way

i watch the sun rise and fall
another day that’s come and gone
there is nothing i could ever achieve
better than feeling love wash over me

i’ve changed cities
i’ve changed states
i’ve tried everything
but i’m still incomplete

i’ll climb another mountain
swim across another sea
anything to find your love
anything to have you notice me

i can’t skip to the good part
where you finally fall in love with me
i have to wake up another day
and hope to find you shine on me

just know i’m on my hands and knees
praying today’s the day that we meet
i’ll try everything
because without you i’m still incomplete