Posts Tagged ‘healing’

“smolder”
completed on 6.16.19

this has gone on far too long
decades hauling these memories
your ghosts in my rear view
a past that always haunts me

its been a while
but i still see your smile
maybe i continue to feel this pain
’cause you threw my love away

i see your face
in the droplets of every drink
i stir the regrets
but can’t seem to drown you out

this is a letter best unread
i’ll strike a match
before the ink sets in
’cause these words were never meant for you

flashbacks in the flame
memories of us smolder away
i need to forget, let this burn
to finally feel whole again

i thought i could leave
run away and start brand new
let myself heal
but i never could outrun you

so this has to be my chance
to burn the past and end this trance
let the memories fade
and get out from under your shade

“Nostalgia”
written on 3.13.19

maybe it’s nostalgia
maybe just fading memories
but no one taught me that
growing up life’s beauty
can also make you bleed

i’m tired of mailing you letters
heartfelt notes that i penned
that mostly collect dust
from a presence gone long ago

maybe it’s time to light a match
to postcards from the past
’cause i’ve daydreamed far too long
to an effort that can’t last
forging a empty, haunting song

<chorus>
so i can’t keep reaching out
leaving my soul hanging from a ledge
’cause there’s someone beside me now
who loves me with a vow

so young and naive
hearts that flash then leave
memories smoldering in a flame
no one to blame
but i’m still healing just the same

<bridge>
she keeps me from falling
never stops calling
keeps my head above water
saves me from life’s slaughter

“You’ll Never Be Alone”
completed on 9.17.18

i watched the dust trail settle
a flower losing its last petal
‘cause I never know where
you are, evidence you just don’t care

i sent you a thousand warnings
flares shot to give you a choice
but you weren’t even looking
now i’m letting this silence be my voice

i lit a match to your excuses
forgave myself for any dues
‘cause you could never find the time
absent during all your prime

i started this letter with hate
but my heart made me restate
this poem is not for you
it’s a promise to another I’ll follow through

family’s not simply chromosomes
but the ones that you can call home
I’ll always be your glue
and always believe in you

I’ll give you all life’s love
from the moment you are born
and as you grow I’m sworn
someone i’ll always be proud of

I’ll be there when you get sick
I’ll be there through thin and thick
you’ll always have a hand to hold
even as you grow old

chorus:
you’ll never be alone
you’ll never feel disowned
I’ll never withhold any love
I’ll always be your stronghold

“To the Bottom and Back”
completed on 2.11.13

i see the shock of losing her
in every destructive choice i made
everything i believed in bleeding out
a wounded heart desperate to heal

i drowned out every symptom
hoped the thrill of a new love
would wash out a loss i could not bear
embedded interest in their eyes
romanticized and always untrue

i cut corners, i got lost
i let my soul pay the cost
i didn’t let my heart pause
to deal with the underlying cause

emptiness expanded over
a tower’s shaky base
settled for any pieces close to me
forced fits fighting to stay upright

i cut corners, i got lost
i let my heart pay the cost
now that i survived the storm cloud
it’s finally time to make her proud