Posts Tagged ‘emptiness’

“Shadow”
completed on 11.12.17

you walk with the sunlight bleeding
feel a darkness gushing
look behind just to see
your shadow isn’t following

and you’d like anyone to notice
your existence
and the cuts that you leave
a pain covered only by your sleeve

you can feel your feet stumbling
the struggle worsening
with eyes that cry for anyone to notice
the beauty inside you

(chorus)
i know you feel incomplete
but i’m asking you to tell me
i’m begging you to warn me (that you need saving)
when you’re drowning in defeat

sometimes the light can be too bright
make you beg for moonlight
but if you’d let me in
i’ll be the relief for which you’ve prayed

even if I can’t be right beside you
i hope that when you call me
my voice is the arms that wrap around you
so you never feel alone

(chorus)
i know you feel incomplete
but i’m asking you to tell me
i’m begging you to warn me (that you need saving)
’cause i know that you’re worth saving

i’ll be your crutch
i’ll be that soft touch
i’ll take away life’s weight
to see the daylight you can create

i’ll help you find that piece of the past
to allow you to heal
’cause you need to feel
the thrill of life again

“reflection”
completed on 6.2.16

this is the ultimate descent
my tumble downward
skin tear to split open my core
broken bones reveal my soul

and now i know my heart will bleed out
as my questions are a scalpel
slicing the sutures of my doubts
that prevented me from coming unglued

we both tumbled off the cliff
skin abrasions and bruised hearts
grasping for withering rope
a relationship in distress

and now i’m in the fallout
with your hand reaching out to me
but I fear the repetition
maybe i should pull myself out alone?

in the traumatic daze i feel confused
to rewind the film or start brand new
a broken past i know is true
or a future to fight through

in my dreams i see your smile
in my nightmares i see our plight
a guilt for letting go
a need for my optimism and dreams return

“all that gleams”
completed on 5.7.16

this life is full of demons
some are choices
some are acquaintances wrong for you
sometimes lessons learned the hard way
shape a life not so easy

you can take the easy route
settle with the fear and doubt
set a match to all that gleams
or scratch and claw ’til you reach your dreams

and i’ve felt the despair of goals outrunning me
out of breath from passions eluding me
slowly i dragged myself from the starless nights
and reached for the light i saw in you

fighting for you was a journey
the ups and downs of helping you believe
wearing my heart on my sleeve
to show you all you can achieve

what i sought in you was the ladder
to climb out of my abyss
you saved me without knowing
i’ll pull the sun towards both of us
to keep the light over our lives

“sand castle”
written on 4.21.16

like a child in a sandbox
shifting sand to create my dreams
but love isn’t quite as simple to build
as we age the castle grows taller
life’s complexity causing the waves to grow larger
threatening to topple my sand castle

i wish love was as easy as saying i need you
but the older we get
the more of our puzzle pieces we find
the harder others become to fit the missing holes
so i stare at a picture that may never be complete

so in my sandbox i built a mansion
every floor built closer to my dreams
but without you i have no foundation
and the emptiness’s waves always threatening
to wash away all my hopes and dreams

so maybe before the sun sets
before the stars appear out of reach
i’ll find you in this place
and we’ll sit here on the beach
and let the sand wrap around our feet

“the end”
written on 3.2.16

a line drawn in the sand
blurred by winds of frustration and the unknown
i witnessed our bright future dim to night
and lost grasp of your loving hand

a downward spiral consuming us
we both turned to medication
our life raft really a sinking ship
a fairytale crumbling in front of us

we moved our lips and made small talk
went through the motions and played the part
ignoring the depth led to a bleeding heart
and now my love has all bled out

and we both could point a finger
raise our voice and make verbal jabs
but that won’t bring us back
’cause we self-destructed
and now there’s nothing but aftermath

tied together by a promise
hope of a better life
but I no longer see you as my wife
too many years of heartache and strife
the end of everything wrong and right

“have to wait”
completed on 2.28.16

dreams, passion, the future hazy
one moment you’ve found home
then you’re stumbling in roam
a world of withering daisies

so maybe i’ve found hope
or just slipped to the end of my rope
when i see the tear slip down your cheek
i can’t stand to see you weak

we’ve cried in pain
felt emptiness and like giving up
but i’ll push life into your vein
save you from future heartache

you and i’ve felt alone
something we can’t overcome by phone
but i don’t mind the wait
’cause my heart won’t let me forget the date
that you brought joy back into my life

i’ll never tell you what to do
always love you for you
i won’t ever get in your way
’cause i’ll never forget the day
that you brought joy back into my life

(un)family

Posted: January 30, 2016 in Lyrics, Poem
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(un)family
completed on 01.29.16

sometimes blood isn’t thicker than water
the choice of obscurity over me
focusing on their pride
while i struggled to survive

the worst excuse that i could see
’cause this isn’t how a family should be
torn between anger and love
an emptiness i can’t get rid of

so i’ve swept away the stains
tried to wash away the pains
unearth the purpose for this life
to prevent living an empty dream

i’ve stumbled for so long
felt lost more than i’ve been found
an aftermath that doesn’t make sense
unclear who’s on my side of the fence

i need love to light the stars
so i can find my way back home
need you as my compass so i don’t roam
only change can slowly mend these scars