Posts Tagged ‘depression’

“Toppling Down”
completed on 5.25.19

i brushed the dust off
a box lost long ago
sealed with layers of caution tape
sliced open with a knife
but the worst was yet to come

wrapped in layers
meant to protect
thought it was safe
but in the dim light i saw
chips and cracks I never knew were there

something bestowed decades ago
crafted from morals and memories
but heartache and stress
made it far too fragile
so i packed it away to keep it safe

too blind and stubborn
despite the cracks
in my ceramic skin
i poured and then poured some more
overflowed and now I’m toppling down

spilling over from the weight of it all
volatile emotions that spill and ignite
vapors of my demons incinerating
tumbling on a one way ticket
as i strike the ground

i bounced off that floor
fractured and shattered
caught on fire and couldn’t breathe
through that black smoke
couldn’t do anything but stumble and choke

but you picked up all my fragile pieces
glued me back together and made me whole
and i still have cracks
but you fill those holes
so there’s more than emptiness inside

you’re the only one
who can look past my imperfections
you’re the only one
who brings out the best in me

“Hurricane”
completed on 1.24.19

the destruction in my wake
the damage that i make
but you grab me at my core
and leave me never needing more

sometimes i’m lost inside a hurricane
the wind swirling around me
leaving me where I can’t see
the slightest thing in front of me

i trend towards chaos
destroy everything in front of me
i’m fighting for answers
and don’t have time to ask for help

chorus:
but your voice is louder than the thunder
and you shield me from the hail
somehow you always calm a storm
a sun shower leaving me feel warm

you calm the ground when it quakes
stop the wind in its place
stop the fire from spreading
to ease my troubled mind

at times i only see a glass that’s empty
but you always fill my cup
when my mind digs a shelter
you always pull me out

chant/round:
louder than my thunder
armor from my hail
soothing my storm
leaving me feel warm

“Tears Like Sleet”
completed on 12.21.18

i caught up with you
in the middle of your journey
feels like a billion years
as you replay everything in your mind

i can tell by the creases on your brow
there’s some things you need help with right now
everything in life out of tune
your mind spinning like a typhoon

<chorus>
i’ll help you, my friend
lost under the dim light of a pale moon
find the blaze of our bright sun
that lights a new path for you

tears like sleet
while you’re speeding down a dead end
slipping and sliding
about to lose control

you don’t want to reach out
for help, but i’ll grab your hand
and pull you up
be an anchor to help you stand

i’ll throw you a rope
a lifeline to escape
your pain, the weight
of feeling incomplete

<bridge>
to a brand new view
’til you learn to cope
to a brand new hope
away from that tightrope

“Shadow”
completed on 11.12.17

you walk with the sunlight bleeding
feel a darkness gushing
look behind just to see
your shadow isn’t following

and you’d like anyone to notice
your existence
and the cuts that you leave
a pain covered only by your sleeve

you can feel your feet stumbling
the struggle worsening
with eyes that cry for anyone to notice
the beauty inside you

(chorus)
i know you feel incomplete
but i’m asking you to tell me
i’m begging you to warn me (that you need saving)
when you’re drowning in defeat

sometimes the light can be too bright
make you beg for moonlight
but if you’d let me in
i’ll steal the pain that’s within

even if I can’t be right beside you
i hope that when you call me
my voice is the arms that wrap around you
so you never feel alone

(chorus)
i know you feel incomplete
but i’m asking you to tell me
i’m begging you to warn me (that you need saving)
’cause i know that you’re worth saving

i’ll be your crutch
i’ll be that soft touch
i’ll take away life’s weight
to see the daylight you can create

i’ll help you find that piece of the past
to allow you to heal
’cause you need to feel
the thrill of life again

“Slipping Away”

Posted: September 17, 2011 in Lyrics, Poem
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“Slipping Away”
written on 9.16.11

there’s a part deep inside me
that feels completely incomplete
drowning under water
and there’s no one to grab my hand
no one should ever feel alone

a smile is what they expect from me
so i’ll fake it so they don’t see my insecurity
love is supposed to make you feel whole
but chasing it has me falling down an endless hole

i can’t swim my way out
so i drink to stay afloat
but now i’m in a sea of emptiness
too confused to know my way out

it’s amazing how day after day
people come and fade away
so few choose to stay
and give their heart away

i’m seeing life in a darker way
and i can’t swim away
i just want to know you care
but no one has time to spare
so i pray for a brighter day

turn the music up
put another shot down
i’ll give this one away
to focus on a brand new day
and dream that happiness will come my way

love never fades
but it slips away
love never fades
but it s l i p s  a w a y. . .